- I just found out that the name Anthony can mean ‘praiseworthy’. Which, like, that’s fucking heartbreaking. I firmly believe that no matter how many times Anthony Janthony Crowley protests against being called nice or kind or good, that’s just a self-preservation instinct because if hell finds out he’s doing good he (and probably Aziraphale) would be in danger of getting destroyed.
- On a personal level I think he actually deeply appreciates being told that he’s good. Especially when it’s coming from Aziraphale. This is the guy who repeatedly mentioned that he didn’t mean to fall. Part of him misses Heaven (original flavour heaven with God present and communicating - not souless corporate heaven) quite desperately and wants to be told that he’s still worthy of it.
- He was cast out for asking questions. This made him fall, as he says, doing a million light year freestyle dive into a pool of boiling sulphur. Nevertheless, throughout the show he continues to question God (show me a great plan! scene)
- That bit where they’re watching Noah’s Ark and he questions Aziraphale: So, giving the mortals a flaming sword, how did that work out for you? To me there’s an underlying question there as well, viz. Did you get punished for disobedience? Did God throw you away too for not following orders or did They understand that you were just being kind, that you are good and caring? What did God think of your kindness? Are you like me now? Are you Fallen?
- (The A/C shipper in me adds another unspoken question, which is : Do you need my help getting used to being Fallen? You’re still a kind anxious beautiful fusspot, you won’t do well in Hell they’ll hurt you. Do you need me to protect you? Let me protect you.)
- Crowley really enjoys rescuing Aziraphale (from the guillotine, from the Nazis, turning up in a flaming car at the Armageddon and casually sauntering over while tossing Aziraphale a compliment) . Again, I think part of Crowley lives for validation and praise. Part of him wants to be the shining badass (arch?)angel coming to the rescue of his beloved. And when Aziraphale thanks him, he gets to feel that for a second. Yes. You are worthy, you are good, you never should have been cast out.
- Shipper headcanon: I am convinced that Crowley has an entire daydream fantasy based around him rescuing Aziraphale from, Iet’s say demonic Nazis with guillotines. In the fantasy, after Aziraphale has been rescued he breathlessly confesses that he’s always loved Crowley and then they do one of those movie kisses where the hero bends the love-interest back as the impressed audience applauds.
- He’s been coming back to this fantasy for 5000+ years. By 2019 it’s got quite specific details.
- Personal AU ish Headcanon: Due to just not being that evil Crowley is actually immune to holy water. He just doesn’t know it. Possibly this something in a world where he used to be Raphael. Holy water won’t work on Archangels, even Fallen ones, especially not F-in-Evil fallen archangels like Crowley. For an evil Fallen archangel who’s into the whole do evil thing holy water burns like diluted acid, but can’t kill. For Crowley - it’s just water.
- Crowley is actually good with kids. Aziraphale’s not terrible either. I think Warlock being kind of a dick is a combination of (a) Crowley and Aziraphale for all their influencing had positions as servants in the household not actual parents. (b) His mother might be okay (no evidence to the otherwise but she’s an ambassadors spouse so is probably very busy with work a lot of the time,) but I suspect that Mr I HAVE A MALE BOY SON Dowling at least probably dropped a pile of toxic masculinity into his kids impressionable head. © He’s 11. We’ve all been self-centred little shits when we were 11 (d) His parents named him Warlock. I doubt that was fun on the playground. He probably deeply wants a name like John or Owen or Tom.
- If they actually co-parented a kid together, that kid would probably be fine, if a little odd about religious stuff.
- Crowley definitely pulled a fast one and saved lots of mesopotamian kids from the Flood, while Aziraphale quietly looked the other way. (What? The notorious Serpent Crawly interfered with the Almighty’s great Flood Plan? How ridiculous. If he was around I most certainly would have noticed!! Incidentally he prefers Crowley. Er - so I’ve heard. From . . a demon I exorcised. Yes.)
- Looking after 200+ kids until the waters receded meant that Crowley got a lot of experience with infants. He is ridiculously competent with small babies. Also he just likes them because the don’t know enough to be afraid of his eyes.
- Funny HC: The Walk is genuinely because after 6000 years, this ridiculous dramatic Snek Man still can’t quite get the hang of legs.
- Non Funny: it’s because of the curse God cast on him after he tempted A&E. Crawl on your belly and consume dust … .and if you don’t it’ll hurt. A Lot. Crowley has the angel equivelent of Scoliosis. His spine and hips are a mess in human form and he’s a regular on chronic pain management forums.
- Coming across posts from kids with severe chronic pain makes him depressed and angry at God all over again.
Good Omens thoughts
Jun. 21st, 2019 11:17 amSo I headcanon that demon and angel powers are little like rechargeable batteries. You can do a lot of little miracles for ages, but eventually you will need a lie down. A series of big fuck off miracles? (Like for example driving your car intact through a burning ring of hellfire, stopping time to talk to a kid while Lucifer himself is clawing his way to earth, doing the thing at the end which is a spoiler) Totally exhausting. Once that's all over and there's space to breathe, I think Crowley just full on collapses. Not unconscious, but he just keels over and can't get up. None of his muscles are co-operating with him and he face-plants again when he tries to get up.
Aziraphale (only slightly less exhausted) manages to drag him back to the bookshop, deposit him on a couch and they both sleep for a week.
Everyone in the Revolutionary Army is low-key convinced that Dragon resents and dislikes Shanks because of how this random-ass pirate just rocked up to Dragon’s son’s hometown and instantly won his love and admiration and then gave him inspiration for how to live his life while hanging out around the kid for a whole year, while Dragon hasn’t seen Luffy for more than five minutes or been able to spend any time with him since the kid was like, two.
While in reality, Dragon’s opinion of Shanks (which he never actually discusses with anyone because he’s busy and it’s all revolution all the time at the moment) is more along the lines of ‘oh yeah that powerful pirate who really pisses off the WG! He lost his arm saving my kid’s life and inspired Luffy into becoming the massive problem for the world government that he is today! Love that guy!'
Ugh Brexit
Feb. 13th, 2019 10:55 pm( Because of course, suggesting to a country that you colonised, brutalised and exploited for centuries that they should rejoin the UK to solve a border problem that you fucking caused in the first place, is not sheer,thoughtless arrogance.)
Resolutions Update
Feb. 9th, 2019 07:59 pmI walked 60km in January. 5km now feels like a decent walk instead of an exhausting slog.
I also did approximately 6 hours of swimming in January and have definitely improved. I can now swim more than two lengths without needing to take a break.
I also lost a couple of pounds which is kind of a nice bonus.
February Resolution is nice and simple: Drink more water. My skin seriously needs me to drink more water. I plan to achieve this by filling a 1 litre bottle every morning.
Ugh Anthem
Jan. 12th, 2019 06:52 pmAlso it's goddamn multi-player. I. Hate. Multiplayer. My internet connection is not good enough for it. Also I want to play in a world in which my escapist fantasy isn't contanstly cracked by coming across someone with annoying lore-breaking usernames. Multiplayer is not for me.
Update on the Resolutions
Jan. 11th, 2019 08:26 pmMy resolution for January is to say yes to doing stuff. Because frankly I spend a lot of time when not working still in my bedroom staring at my laptop. I need to get out more. So I've been saying "Sure, let me get my stuff together and we'll go now!" instead of reflexively (and yeah it really has become a reflex) saying "no thanks" when someone asks me to go for a walk or my sister-in-law asks me to go swimming, etc.
As a result I've done three 5km walks in the last week and been to the local pool for the first time in ages. Turns out the pool has a jacuzzi now.
New year, same old me
Jan. 1st, 2019 05:50 pmPart of the basic problem with new years resolutions for me is the way that they can become overwhelming and there's a real sense of 'ugh I can't keep this up for a whole year'.
This way, I can try to keep up something for four weeks ish, which should hopefully be much more manageable.
Wish me luck. . .
On the subject of Tumblr
Dec. 8th, 2018 05:00 pmAnd I just. think. that it's interesting that the typical image evoked by other media of the a tumblr user is a teenage girl when the actual demographic is adult women. Adult women with jobs and families and kids and responsibilities as well as tumblr accounts.
I think maybe its because if you're talking intersectionally, the largest marginalised group in the world is women. Like, there are other groups within that group (disabled women, trans women, women of colour, female sex workers, fat women etc and a lot of people definitely tick more than one of those boxes so they get to experience multiple types of marginalisation ) but if we're drawing a venn diagram here, you're starting with a big circle labelled 'women'. Because women make up about half the population of the planet. And tumblr gave that large marginalised group (and the other groups within and adjacent to it) a space to talk about the daily reality of being marginalised and space to cope with it through art and writing.
And now all of that is being lost through neglect (tumblr staff flat out ignored the pornbot problem for ages) and carelessness (the blanket porn ban, the awful algorithm flagging totally unrelated posts as porn.)
I'm not sure if this post has a conclusion of any kind, it's just me thinking out loud, in a sense.
Anyway, that's it really.